If there’s one thing people should know about me, I am a very patient person. I could wait…
As my friend one said: “she always waits, patiently, like a cat.” and I do, as long as I know that I have something to wait for. In your case, all I needed was a sign. A single step forward. an inkling that you wanted me as much as I do you. I did what I could, I waited, I sometimes asked, I tried to talk, I went to you. I’m not sure if you saw that.
I’m not asking for a sudden change, or a grand gesture. simple words would have sufficed. a touch, a simple “stay.” anything. I got nothing. I know you said you cant force me and that you won’t hold me back. but that’s the thing right there: I wanted you to hold me back. But you didn’t. I tried to make you do it though, I went away, hoping that if I stopped communicating I’d get something out of you. I didn’t. I sent you messages, hoping that if I started communicating I’d get something out of you. I didn’t.
so there. I got a clue. I stopped trying.
I’m frustrated, but I’m not mad. I guess you’re not ready yet, or I’m just not worth the effort, or whatever. You see, since you refused to talk, I was left with a lot of ideas on what to make out of what happened. we both got hurt in the process. and now, seeing what you did, I don’t think there’d ever be a way to make it right again. so now I’m doing what I could, I’m picking up the pieces and I’m trying to move on ‘cos that’s the only choice I have.
andaming epal sa mundo. yung parang pinaglihi sa tinga at sama ng loob, pilit isisingit ang sarili kahit di naman welcome tapos puro kabullshitan naman lalabas sa bibig.
dimo ikagaganda yan miss.
pakabait ka nalang sa dalawa mong boyfriend.
I admit to being a lot of things, I’m not ashamed of who I am. And i don’t really care if I don’t measure up to people’s standards.
we’re all scarred. and we each have our way of dealing with it. i pity those who get pissed off when someone drags their dirty laundry out in public, and I admire those who has their minds open enough to just understand.
I got hurt, I had my time to let it all out, and now I’m done.
the world’s full of negativism, it was only days ago I was in that phase. but now that I’m moving on I hope I wont get drowned by all the vitriol other people are spewing forth towards my direction. I’m not really sure why they still bother with me, for I myself am doing my best not to bother with them.
not anymore. and now, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in months.